Two month mark again, hahaha this is becoming habit.
So, that guy my last post was about. What a fuckin' joke. I always make things seem better than what they are. It was evident after our second hang-out, when I wouldn't give in to the sex-act that things wouldn't progress at all. It is only now in retrospect that I've seen a pattern in me. That pattern, one of being infatuated with someone and letting them seemingly get the better of me. Thinking that they are the absolute and for what? At a cost of my self-worth. A pattern I've stopped!
As the Universe would have it, meeting the above person was exactly what I needed to loosen the noose around my neck in trying to find the perfect Being for me, as a partner. Perfection does not exist. There is perfectly imperfect, which is exactly the place where I am... meaning I fit into this. And I think we all do. There is also... perfect for me and I have found him. :)
Thinking about him and the stuff we've been through so far makes me feel incredibly lucky. We've been going together for about a month. It's all new to me, as this is my first relationship. I met him at a time I was trying to see the best in the world and realizing that everything that is meant to be, will be. It was very tough for me at that time. But I did it, I got through that cornerstone in my life and I am happy, finally. I would say for sometime, like for the entire summer, really I have tried to see the brighter side of any situation. In that, it brought happiness, but there was always a part of me that felt maybe I would be alone, or be one of those women who find the Love of their Life at age 40. Instead though, I find him at the ripe age of 26! What a miracle! I cannot believe I have. I am stiLL stunned, everyday that he exists!
And honestly ladies, for those of you reading this. There is hope. Maybe you are too rigid, like I was, in your lists of characteristics that you desire in your ideal mate. If you are more open-minded, which I thought I was, than you leave that wonderful golden door open for someone simply outstanding to walk through. He has for me, and he will for you too! My last posting, I wrote that that guy was pure magik (this is me being far too kind), he was not in the least. Although we all are magik. My boyfriend, my partner is the truest, most exhilarating kind of magik that ever has & ever will exist in my world. I Love you baby!
