fml

This is probably the most selfish thing I've ever said...

But I don't care that you are happy...... I don't want to see how your life turned out so perfectly and how I am left picking up the pieces of mine. You can just go FUCK OFF for all I care...... I'm miserable and I don't want, well first of all,  I don't want to be (who wants to be miserable?). But I don't want to deal with people who are happy. Seriously I am simply not emotionally strong enough to do that, especially when I'm in this state of mind. Usually I can tolerate how happy my friends are and sometimes strangers I walk by too. But everybody parading it (not intentionally, I know) in front of me..... I can''t stand, I won't!