You say suicidal attempt. I say coward. That's what you are for not manning up to your responsibilities and putting in effort to get yourself out of the rut you have put yourself in. No-one is to blame but you. It's a hard reality to accept but it's the truth.

I  love you and I want to see you succeed, but you really have to do that all on your own. With help of course, yes. But alone for the most part as it is you and only you who has control over your life.

Today you made me cry, for only a few minutes, nothing over the top balling or anything, but it was crying, something that I don't do. So when I do cry, however brief the tears are, they are real and meaningful.

You made me cry with the thought of you NOT in my life, buried somewhere six feet under. You made me cry with the thought of how you think you are worthless.  How can you believe that about yourself? You're not, you just have to find that worth somewhere!

 How would we be able to honor your death if you were to do that to yourself? Your actions would be a testament to how well you were raised and that kind of behvaiour tells people that you were not raised in the most pristine condition. That you're weak, as much as I hate to say it. Yeah, life's tough and people have a whole bunch of problems to deal with but they get by. You saying that you're going to leave this earth sooner then necessary tells everyone that you are not a fighter, but a giver-upper. And not strong enough. You are, you just gotta believe that too. It's sad you don't.

Go get HELP. PLEASE, you need it. http://www.dcontario.org/help.html#toronto