Here I am laughing at the fact of the first guy I ever really "hooked up" with wanting to, or says he does, "party again sometime together." HA, is what I say, as if that will happen again! I shouldn't be laughing, but it's a mix of that-will-never-happen-again, and oh-it-was-good-while-it-lasted, kind of a laughter. Instead of laughing, I feel I should almost be offended. After all, we hooked up, that's all we did - was fool around, and he would like to do it again, to get his needs met. P-ahh-leeze
Funnily enough I actually feel guilty for coyly enjoying his comment. I wouldn't mind being with him again, but we both, at least I have, changed so much in the four years we've not been in touch. I no longer drink. Even socially. I've been sober, or alcohol free for hmmm, I'd like to say two years but truth be told I have no idea when the last time I consumed alcohol was. I remember sipping at my mom's wine, last year, I think. So I guess that would make it a year or less... And I have a crush on someone, usually I prefer not to be with any other, than that person. But, if it happens, it happens.
Chances are it won't happen. Sometimes though, it's incredibly freeing, to simply loose control!
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