How do you accept the decisions made in your past, if people from your past are still in your life..... They're not causing pain intentionally, but the reminder of the way things were is still overbearingly present and overwhelming. Is it possible to remove them completely, from your life, your thoughts?? Why would you want to?

The past is attestament to who we are today and is by no means a bad thing. So why do I feel I am going nowhere, not moving forward or anything, with friends, with school, with life. It feels like I am in the same retrograde motion that is counter productive.

It just feels like I am at square one again, beginning from the start of something that never began in the first place...

I know I shouldn't take things personally, but I often think about some of the sly remarks you make, that don't intend on being hurtful but somehow wind up being anyway, makes me wonder how much you actually learned about me, the time we spent together. cmmm, cmmm, nearly nothing

When I look back and think about where we could be.... how far we could be right now, it literally eats me up inside. That is why the past is the poison to the brain and the heart!

I think things are no more.... we are barely even friends. Thanks!!!

I gotta say that I'm a little disappointed.... but..... it doesn't matter.

The equivalent to journal writings.

I think it's kind of annoying how you always get to talk about it and I never do.

There are no mixed messages. Bull fuckin' shit!!!!!

Feels like I am just a friend.... I am just a friend, that's all I am.

I feel I have been criticized and put down in your eyes..... I'm probably wrong but.... who really knows?

Wow, I know I shouldn't jump to conclusions, I guess maybe I'm being a bit paranoid. I thought you said you were done on the 26th. I guess I may no longer be a part of your life then, if that's the case. It's probably for the best!

I don't think I should be saying any of this really, because I don't know for certain. Things aren't definitive. But I can't say I'm surprised or am really actually all that bothered. I've grown used to it.

They are holding you hostage. My heart just so happens to be there with you.

Sometimes, more so lately, I've been thinking about how different things would be between us... if this, if that..... but I can't continue to do that. I need to know things are going to be good between us!

I miss how easy things once were...

I think I found you, and I am terrified that someone can easily take you away from me with just one word, "No".

I may be paranoid but I hope they don't secretly know you were once mine and they are trying to keep you from me. I hope to hear from them soon!

When I saw someone today that looked like you from the back (just their jacket), it hit me how much I actually miss you!

Watch us fizzle into nothingness!

I could say I've put my everything into this, I've given it my all, but I haven't and I can't continue to try.

Only the good parts!

I like my alone time, yes, but this is too much!!!

Why don't you fuckin' understand?????